I don't know where to turn, I've been stuck in this routine.
I need to change my ways, Instead of always bein' weak.

- It's amazing what you can hide just by puttin' on a smile.

The feeling of... inferiority and everything else.
Sometimes when you're mad, all you feel like doing is swearing and kicking or punching on to something that will definitely hurt you in the end because you think that is THE way how you would want to release your anger but that is wrong because you will hurt yourself even more, that way.

I don't see why should all of us do that but... when you're mad at something, you can never thinking of anything else but the very ONE thing that you're mad about. You can't take it anymore that you just had to let it all go. No matter in what way.

When I'm on the rage about something, all that i will do is cry. I'll cry till i feel better. Or writing it all down for me, sometimes... works too. It depends on how you want to look at things, really.

And sometimes i wonder, what made things go the way it is now?
Should i just let it go? Well, i have tried but nothing new happened, nothing at all happened. It will always stay the way it is. From the past to the present and i predict, the future.

I've been trying to make things seem less about me.


I was just seething with anger that i had to let it all out and cry.
It does make me feel better but it will all come back to me when i see it again.
Of course it will.
It never not did.

It always did.

Fitting in or not is not the case.
It's just. Ignorance.

I'm not surprised if anything... nice happen someday.

Yes, you don't get me.

Sigh.