love is about never giving up.








wildchild!baby baby somebody’s gonna cry tonight.
baby baby but it will be my tears tonight.

Omg omg. I, shockingly am addicted to pussycat dolls' watcha think about thaaaaat!
it's now my handphone's ringtoneeeeee.

zahrah, sprained her ankle today, by the way.
went parkway with her to find atiqah her birthday present along with my mum ...
my mum cos she had to do some shopping. she had to find a present for my cousin too actually. as today's her birthday. my family and i are going to her birthday party tomorrow right after my madrasah exam though. (:

its stupid how we are all still having madrasah when all my cousin's already ended theirs.
urgh. exams. all because of the exams.
i, somehow am looking forward to tomorrow, really. i wanna see what is going to happen tomorrow. either good stuff happening or the bad stuff ... i had the best yet weird dream ever, last night and the dream kinda happened during madrasah?
so yeah.
was a nice dream uh. :D

sorry you sprained your ankle! get well soooon, zahrah! (see lah, too excited to meet me right! HAHAHA, jk)

and it's true.
(;

nice right?
I like it!
it's just $10 there.
(:

I want ah.

i need you more than you ever know, i still do and i'm willing to let it show.

This moment is perfect please don't go away I need you now.

i obviously wasn't looking forward to the KL trip with my family at first.

i just felt sad because i knew i will not be hearing your voice for as long as i was away.

That few hours chat on the phone with you was really great and it even made me cry - badly.

i'm sorry. i just couldnt hold back the tears.

i was just afraid you'll just forget me. everything you said to me, every single thing .. it kept echoing in my mind and it kept playing over and over again. listening to that particular song just made me smile.

you just dont know how i feel and nobody will ever understand.

(:

i was very annoyed by my cousins when i met them at the hotel we were staying in.

they were very busy texting their boyfriends and telling me how much they missed them and
bla bla blas.

the first day was torture, i tell you.

whinings here and there. annoying shit.

so, whatever.

gosh.

bought a bathing ape jacket - Dolce & Gabanna bag. :D

i like!

I JUST CRIED.
RAISE YOUR VOICE IS SO SAD.


"i mean, i like you, a lot."
"yeah, i like you too."

omg. the show is effin' sweet.

i cried. omg. i cried. i cried. cried. cried.





"he should be showing respect if he loves you."

this is for you, amalia.
i told you to listen to me but you didn't want to and now it's too late.

but i love you for listening to me when i warned you to not smoke.
you kept the promise for a year and i love you for that, hehe :D

if he loves you amalia, he should really respect you and not force you to do stuff you don't want. i was glad that i was the first one you called right after it all happened to you.
good thing you regretted it all.

but this is all up to you. if you want to continue being with him, your choice but, be careful.
honestly, i'm proud of you.
i'm proud of you for keeping the promise you made to me.
thanks so much for keeping it and not breaking it.

(:

i can't live without you. - i live for the day; lindsay lohan.

people, i'll be leaving for KL tomorrow morning. i'll miss you all.
i don't know why, but i feel sad.



The rules & regulations
1) Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself
2) People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own, 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly
3) At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged & list their names
4) No tag back.

TEN WEIRD THINGS/HABITS/LITTLE KNOWN FACTS ABOUT ME!
1) i talk on the phone for at least half an hour before bathing every morning.
2) i never liked electro-pop music before listening to shake it by metro station.
3) i sometimes like sleeping with the lights on.
4) i've always wanted a musically talented/rocker-like boyfriend.
5) i always wake up in the morning hoping i'd recieve texts.
6) i have always wanted a hollywood life =X
7) my relatives would call me everyday to check on me even when my parents are home.
8) i don't like housework.
9) i have got small hands and feet.
10) sad songs and sad dramatic movies make me cry.


1) Atiqah.
2) Zahrah.
3) Rasyad.
4) Shafei.
5) Amalia.
6) Amirah.
7) Ashikin.
8) Khai.
9) Sarah.
10) Amira.



OHMYGOSH. SO FUNNY!




Hehe. (:






... And wake up with the fondest memories


"The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside him knowing you can't have him"

:D

omg, omg, omg, YAY.
i'm finally going out after being alone for don't-know-how-many-days!
an outing with zahidah (along with her bestfriend, fatin) , rasyiqah and amalia. tomorrow (:
we're off to watch whildchild (starring emma roberts) , maybe.
i checked the GV website and the movie hasn't started yet, i guess. URGH. shitz.

i told my mum that i'm gonna go out to watch a movie tomorrow but she bet that i'll cancel the outing cos i kept cancelling on people just because of my laziness. -.-
lazylazy me! :D
but, i said that i won't.
and i mean it. I will not cancel this rocking outing. (:
HAHAH.
my mum knows me so well.
"Not out today?" she will sometimes ask and i'll be like, "Nope. Malas."
my dad will be, "Kau plan2 dengan orang always tak jadi jer. Nanti excuse malas. Aper jer."
i love my parents (hearts).
Lol.

See, i am too lazy to do anything at all.
all i do at home is laze around the bed or sofa and watch dosages of Jon & Kate Plus 8. Sorry lah. i cannot get enough of the show uh.


i love you - NOT.
i am so over you already lah, okay. (:
yay heyhey yaaaay!
HAHAHAHA.

and and,

CHEER UP SELYNNA.
I HOPE YOU MASOK K. (grins).
pink for you. lol.

i am happy today. and dont know why. ehehehee.

upcoming outings - :

tomorrow's movie outing.

an outing with rasyad.

another 'unplanned' outing.

all before i leave for KL.

November 11, 2008

i am not going listen to it's not over by secondhand serenade anymore.
its sucks. it made me cry. JUST. NOW.

thank you so much for caring. thank you so much for being there whenever i need you.

thank you so much. thanks a lot.

gosh. i just cried.

and i can't seem to forget him.

it is so hard for me to ...

i know ive said so many times on what a jerk he is being but inside, i still ... NEVERMIND.

maybe, its better for me to not be in love.

it seriously sucks.

whatever that happen on tv, does not happen in real life.

ill tell myself, this is not some hollywood drama. this is life. this is reality.

i dont always get what i want.

i dont get the guy i love.

i dont get a thousand dollars a day for working.

we do not have paparazzis here. here, is not hollywood.

@^$%

AND, FREAK BLOGGER!
STUPID, URGH.

I dont think you will even care if i said to you, i loved you.

:

November 10, 2008

It's NOT worth it.

You left me here with all these scars.

But I'm not sorry.

i'm over you & i'm done waiting for you.

i'm already giving up.

:]

oh, oh and.

And i wonder when will the outing with Qazimah be.

Haha! Qazimah Qazimah. Demi! hahas.

Sorry yeahs, if i'm that busy with things.

I'll make sure the outing is before the 20th, before you leave. Set? :D

Ps: You'll so get annoyed by me, just so you know :P

Btw, anything, i'm here yeahs?

I'm "Jamie All Over" remember? :P

- Rasyad.

thanks rasyad. thanks so much (:

and you better go out with me before i leave k.

HAHA, right. jk. urgh, whatever, qazimah. (flips hair) =D

planning to watch HSM3 again with him even though i said it sucks!

Lol. But i found out that he watched twice already lah.

so maybe watching wildchild then .. or, not.
-.-

so, yesterday.

my brother and i went to Tampines Mall to get presents for my mum's birthday tomorrow.

we celebrated it yesterday night first because my brother is going to be in camp on my mum's birthday. so ya.

i had a tiring day, yesterday you know.

spent the whole 4-8pm shopping for my mum's presents.

well, not really.

my brother bought things for himself and so did i.

i bought a headband and a striped tee for myself. (:

for my mum. we bought her a ring. oh, rings actually. a couple ring.

one for my dad and the other for my mum, a blouse and a small rectangular chocolate fudge cake.

reached home at around 8plus. managed to catch jon & kate plus 8 on the telly :D

and surprised my mum with the pressies.

yay.

(:

November 09, 2008

I'd rather give up than wait.
I'll tell myself that youre not worth waiting for, youre not worth it.
You just dont see how much it hurts.
You dont know how i feel inside, you, ignoring me.
You, pretend like you do not know me.
It hurts, it really hurts.
You are killing me inside.
My heart breaks to a million pieces.
But, i will always tell myself, you will change, you will ...
but, you obviously did not.

I thought you were the right one for me.
You werent.
I have wasted enough time on you.
I promise myself to let you go.
but it seem very hard for me.
i will just still let you go.
i will forget you.
i will forget you and ill pretend like i never ever knew you.

You dont see me crying on the outside,
I cry, but on the inside.
I am giving up.


someone will come way.
someone ... someone better than you.
much, much better.

and i believe it will happen.
someday.

you, will never love me.

my fragile heart, it broke.

November 08, 2008

I'm screaming for a sight of you.I'm nothing without you.I'd rather be here with you.i guess i'm in love with you. IM DOWN, SOMEBODY PLEASE CHEER ME UP.

November 07, 2008

i would like to thank rasyad for cheering me up.
you called me at around 12am yesterday but it was worth it. :D
thank you so very much. you really cheered me up and you know what what what?
(ask me when we're on the phone, hehs.)

i was sad yesterday.
only the two of you know why.
and the two of you are rasyad & amalia.
lucky uh, the two of you. better thank me k. haha, jk!

and murni
relax lah, dont get all tensed!
cheer up! :DD
really. at least your out today, right?

ohmygod.
was thinking of wanting to let go and to forget about you but i decided not to.
wait, or should i?
even if im not over you, i know that you wont be all happy and you wont even like me back.
so, what is the use?
i know it all. youre different than all the other guys.
weird i know, but, i like you.
this is truth and it is hard to get over you.
its been quite a long time since ive last liked you.

whatever, this is life and ill have to face rejection.
you dont even really notice me. so, whatever lah.

im over it and DONE.

thank you.

D;

bcos i still ly

November 05, 2008

today was funfunfun. (:
went to the library with zahrah.
she met me under my block and stuff. it was raining and her flipflops were wet, so i borrowed her my mum's high heels and i know that she cant walk with high heels. X=
haha.
it was raining and that point of time and when we reached to the library, we were drenched and wet. oh oh, cold too.
studied arab and gossiped. the usual us.

went to mcdonalds after that and bought sundae for my mum and myself. :D
zahrah came over to my house to slack and continue gossiping.
prank called akmal.
it was so fun.
but dear me, had to spoil it all. i went laughing like crazy.
GOSH, ME!

i wanna eat ice cream sundae ah.

November 04, 2008

heyheyhey.
today was kinda interesting.
had sort of an 'outing', with my mum, my aunt and her daughter and her boyfriend.
all of us had arnold's for lunch and while my mum and aunt went to shop, my cousin and her boyfriend and i, we sat around.
well, just so you know, my cousin is with faris (also my madrasah friend) so, faris and i talked about the hot guys in madrasah and stuff. (:

i treat them - ice cream ah! :D
faris said thank you. i blanja him also tau.

went home after that.

tired and bored!

November 03, 2008

Akmal, my brother and shae, "Look at Shae!" Cousins.

Shae & Nadia.

HSM3.

HSM3 yesterday.

it wasnt really that good. too many singing and touching here & there. i know, its a musical so, it is suppose to have singing and stuff but, too many of it lah. i was pretty much annoyed with it. troy kept touching gabriella. disgusting.

i heard akmal. he went, "EW, MAMPOS!"

HAHAHA. yeah.

but the movie has funny parts too.

i kinda dont really like the movie but i ended up crying when gabriella had to go and leave troy.

what does that mean? do i like the movie or not?

i dont know!

whatever.

its better when you watch it with someone you love.

i guess.

and, i love you. but, we wont happen.

and right now, i am missing you, badly.

i want to see you.

i love you.

(:

November 01, 2008

OHMYGOD.
HAVE YOU GUYS FREAKIN' SEEN HILARY DUFF'S NEW VIDEO, 'Reach Out'?
it is really really seductive. what the heck.
what happened to the old hilary duff? the old, innocent, sweet hilary?
she've changed.
yeah, she wanted to follow britney spears' footsteps (as said by rasyad) :D
and she is just not herself in that video.
sorry to say, she suck. seriously. like, ew!
oh oh, funny part was, she hugged a statue. a bit like raihanna's 'disturbia' where she hugs a zombie.
gross.

hehs.

im stuck to it's not over my secondhand serenade by the way (;
i dont know why, just a very meaningful song. you should listen to it too.

madrasah today was fine. zahrah kept telling me how danial kept looking over at us and biting his nails, she then asked, "Does he have a girlfriend?"
and i gave her that, 'how-do-you-expect-me-to-know' look.
-.-"

recess.
i dont know why but, akmal dani looked at me and looked away. wtf. dont know how to smile is it? HAHAHA.
k anyways, ate in class.
we usual hang around with 'just the five of us' but today seemed different. i wanted to play hangman in class so zahrah started the game.
a few of the class girls pop in and sat on their chairs and they ended up playing hangman too.
so today, we sorta like, bond with the other girls and not just the five of us. (:

hahaa.
it was sort of cool, actually.



ill be away later.

stares.