Today wasn't as bad as i expected it to turn out.
I slept at almost 12 in the morning and woke up two minutes earlier than the usual time that I'd wake up in the morning for school which is, 5.45am. (I don't have to be totally specific about this, do i?) Oh well.

Had a period free and I had nothing... absolutely nothing to do at all. I wanted to read because it was darn bored but i realized that I didn't have books nor magazines with me when i usually bring either of them to school in case of emergency. OHMYGOD. I freakin' panicked la. But then, i felt a little bit too tired that i slept. Okay well, not slept slept but rested.
Recess was only like what. 20 minutes? GAH.

So anyway, tell me. I'm a fifteen year old. But... do i look like a 10 or 12 year old?
I'm sick of people mistaking me for a primary school kid. I really don't know what's it.
Do i look not mature, is it my height or my knowledge?
I'm sick of people telling me that some other people are mature than me.
Like, i look small. Like a kid. A KID.
I don't like that. I want to look like a fifteen year old when i am one! Please!
Urgh. Things like these annoys me.
They'll be like, "Eh, you're primary what?" or ladadadada.
WTF.
Do i look old or young or tiny or what?
Really.
People tell me to take it as a compliment, sure.
But, what is it? SHORT-NESS?
So what if i'm short la?
Heck.

I can't wait for school to watch all dramas unfold because each time i step in class, war starts - okay, not exactly and i just am not looking forward to school because of all the tests, the handing up of homeworks and me getting red inks on my papers because I write answers for questions wrong. People would disturb me for my voice, my shoe size or whatever shit they think is wrong with me and "Stop la, it's freaking not funny." or "Whatever." would come out from me and then the "Sorry's" would be after whatever i just said.
Typical. Everyday of my school life would be like how i just narrated above.
There's no surprises for me at every each end of the day, I would just learn from what I go through everyday.
I sometimes get sick of going through the same thing every single day but well, I'll just have to live with it till my secondary school years come to an end.

And when school starts, I sure am going to miss the people I hang around with during the June Holidays. I'm gonna miss Selynna very much because we're the bimbobitches alive and she's awesome. I'm gonna miss our minah-talks and her and Jurrassic Jumble, the game we played with her boyfriend, Zulfaliq and his friends... the screamings, the enthusiasm that died right after they had to go.
I am going to miss Zahrah and our bowling sessions together although i am going to see her every Sunday when Madrasah starts.
Oh, There wasn't much that i did during the Holidays but I, of course too... am going to miss baking cupcakes with my mum and our bonding time.
I am going to miss staying home alone although i hated it to some degree at times.
I'm going to miss going to the arcade with Shafiq. We played some car racing game yesterday and i lost. But i loved it anyway.
I am going to miss Akmal Dani and his sarcasm that's super annoying and joined converstation we had online with Hidayah. A picture of Chace of Gossip Girl that we made fun of like mad and Fergie and Miley Cyrus and all of that.
I'm going to miss the celebrity talks i'd have with Syahmi.

I am looking forward to school but at the same time not because of all the above that i am going to miss, really.
I wanted to get hot chocolate and cookies for when I'm walking to school from getting off the bus.
I've always wanted that.

I like Number One by Tinchy Stryder Ft. Dappy (Of N Dubz)
Have a listen. It's beat-ish-y.


You can't blame me for always being number one

I WANT THOSE WISHES ABOVE WAYYY BAD
But it's fine. I shall get over those wishes.
I'll never get those two.
Never.

I'm really really happy right now.
as happy as i was yesterday.
Lucas Till is so hot.
Taylor Lautner is so hot.
I'm so buying Demi Lovato's new CD when it comes out.
I don't quite like the new cast members of Hi-5.
The City is showing on MTV during the month of July.
I don't like Heidi Montag & Spencer Pratt together, really.

Father's Day was celebrated yesterday night at Changi Airpot's Swensens instead of today.
I shall leave you all only with pictures.

... since i am too lazy to type it all out since it happened yesterday and am too, lazy to elaborate.

Today,
was an outing with my brother.
Out to where? Bugis!
Bought what? Two mini dresses, $10 for two. (Cheap or whaaaaatzxzx?!)

I crave for so many more,
short jacket for $15.
A long dress for $14.
Headband for $3.50.
More printed tees.

But... nah. I thought I shouldn't so I didn't although those two dresses i thought, weren't enough for me :D I want more shoes actually. But since my feet's mini, i can't fit in any types of shoes except for slip-on's and slippers. I don't quite like shoes, really so I shall buy more of slip-ons and slippers very very very sooooon.

I know that I should really stick to my own problems considering i have one. (Kay wait, I do and, I really am slowly tryna get over all of it, though) but I'm quite worried about this friend of mine. And i mean it. I don't know why is that so but this particular friend seem to have a lot in mind... This friend seem so, lost i guess?
I am kind of worried because I don't know what's going on or what's going through this friend's mind.
This friend seem to have a negative thinking of a lot of things and i want this friend to know to not give up although i know that, i sometimes have and i found out that it is wrong to. Because once you give up, you'll always give up and it will become a habit.

I don't know why am i worrying so much about this friend when we're not at all close.
I guess, I just want this friend to feel better. A whole lot better.
And i want this person to know that i'll always have your back no matter how hard things get. I'll always be there if you need me. (:

I know how it is to having things crumbling down... in front of your very eyes, really.

I know you're just pretending to make everything as normal as it gets.
But, you know you'll always have me to turn to.
So, cheer up alright!




And today's outing with Zahrah was awesome.
I love you babe. And and andddd - Don't forget. TOMORROW.


the world i see is perfect now.

I am totally looking forward to my outing tomorrow with Zahrah. Single ladies - bowling outing, yet again but that's alright because I absolutely miss Zahrah okay and well, was thinking to meet Zul after that cos we haven't been meeting each other for very long. But i don't think he can, though.
I'm much much better. Wayy better than yesterday, that is.
And i would like to thank Selynna for hearing me out, yesterday night. Thanks yeah (:

I'm feeling rather... I don't know. I so badly wanna talk to the people i wanna but they'll be too busy, I guess. Shan't bother them. But i so totally need to talk to Zul and ask about his trip.
Hopes he picks up my call.
If he doesn't then... hmm.

I wanna be out on a massive outing with friends but some people are just not supportive youknow! Goshhhh.

Needa buy more dresses.
I need a new MP3.

I want chocolates.
I feel the need to talk to loads of people on the phone. Really.



HAHA. I'M SO ADDICTED TO 3oh!3's don't trust me! :D

Things, sometimes are difficult to overcome, it's hard to but you've to try.
All you have to do is put up an act because you don't want to see people sad just because... you are. All you have to do is that, you have to let those people know how you feel and let them be in your shoes so that they'd understand... But if they really don't, make them. If they really, really don't, I guess it's best that you let them be and when they realize it, they'll know how it feels.

I don't know why are things going so terribly bad... again.
I thought I got over it and that it's already over, that episode of my life's over but, i totally was wrong. I can get over things but when it's these kinda things, i don't think i can.
Yes, they do disappear in my mind sometimes but it keeps coming back.

Oh well.
It'll all start back.
Have to try my best to get over it, again.

Ah, ifffyouckamy la!



I suck at this and I'm pathetic.

Have you ever had this feeling where, you don't know which exact clique you belong to?
Have you ever feel like you're not yourself when you're in one particular clique you think you're comfortable with and then you are actually making yourself feel good with them just for the sake of it. You feel like it's as though... you have to change who you are to be with them. You've to be like them to be with them.
I, honestly feel like that, sometimes.
And when I be like them, i tend to not be myself and I'm like, a whole different person with I'm with some people.

But lesson learnt,

It's better to be yourself.
Because, It takes a whole lot to be something you are not.

And, I MISS ZAHRAH! OHMYGOD. IT'S SO HARD TO GET HER ON THE LINE NOW. D;
Ooo, Hilary Duff has a tattoo, her first tattoo that says 'Let It Be' on her ankle. I know- how unbelievable.
Miley Cryus has a new piercing on her nose and I think, I'm really starting to like Miley already. Ohmygoddddd! This is freaking me out. Okay, not so... actually. Because I know of some friends who used to be 'haters' of Miley and they soon start liking her unintentionally.

Listening to The Climb by Miley Cyrus makes me wanna cry.

I wished there was this person who'd be there for me when I cry,
when I'm happy, when I'm not wearin' make up and i still feel comfortable with.
I miss that.
I miss talking having company.
I miss having someone to always think about.
I miss laughing, joking around and not being afraid of sounding stupid with this person.
I miss having someone listening to me, someone who knows me inside out.
I miss having someone always on my mind.
I miss that feeling.


everything's really around and it is freaking me out.

I just found out that Miley Cyrus is no longer with Justin Gaston. Awww.
Okay, Akmal thinks I'm starting to actually LIKE Miley Cyrus which, I don't. I just... now don't see the point of disliking her anymore... after watching Hannah Montana : The Movie, that is. Hee. Ohmy. What is wrong with me. I'm starting to sound like I actually like Miley Cyrus already! Ish, ish Qazimah!
I should stop it. :D

I am officially back home after staying for three days and two nights at Downtown East's Chalet. I had real good fun.

(See previous post)

Overall, i loved it all.
It was fun.
Had Faliq's friends serenade-ing to Dear Maria by All Time Low, Check Yes Juliet by We The Kings, I'd Hate To Be You By Mayday Parade and Selynna played In My Eyes by Rufio.

Aunt bought me a blue mini dress (as seen above) and i like it.
Took loads of pictures and one of them was taken with a carousel at the background. I LIKE.

Kak Firah filled me in about The Hills.
Brother's friends came, too.
Didn't get to swim as I had to help mum, i didn't intend to anyways.

BBQ-ed at night. Hazmi came.

Akmal texted me saying that he was dying of boredom... So, i entertained him. With enthusiasm because I was really high. I'm high when I'm sleepy.
Texted till he had to go to sleep. I am nice, right Akmal. I'm awesome like sweet-smelling socks.
(That was what i told him, by the way. "I'm awesome like sweet-smelling socks, admit it.")
I don't know what the hell made me say that! HOW DUMB OF ME.

Iqa slept over. Talked about lots of things till we fell asleep at one plus a.m.
My brother was thinking of us ton-ing till late and go for a late-night movie but we were all too tired out.

I think what im typin' down's crap and that is only because I'm too lazy to elebrorate.

I enjoyed every single minute of it all.
My cousins, my friends, my family.

Love them all so much.


yeahsshxhxhz.