The feeling was... indescribable.
It felt like as though i was being pushed down into a small hole.
i was suffocating.

I felt like, I was being forced to do something when I'm not.
I was suppose to enjoy the day but I somewhat didn't.
A lot of unexpected things happened.
I'd not say that today was dumb because it is not.
But...
I don't know.
I don't feel myself. I don't feel me.
I was on the verge of crying but I didn't let my tears flow.
It would be dumb if i did because, to cry over something unimportant is really... (fill in your own word)
So, i didn't.

I felt terrible.
"I don't wanna be like them but, I don't wanna be the odd one out."
I had that thought.
But i ignored it.
I tried but I can't.

You just don't know how the feeling is.
There's a whole lot more to what I've typed out.
Only a person knows about this.
I dare not tell anyone else.
I feel so w-h-a-t-e-v-e-r.
But, i really hate the feeling.
I hate it that I had the feeling of being pushed when i am not.



Some people... they are just total opposites.

You don't get it.
Because you are not me.