Crashing Down, Down, Down!
June 07, 2009
It Was A Moment Of Weakness,
"ARE YOUR THOUGHTS KILLING YOU?"
Very much, yes.
I don't understand things that is now happening... anymore. I'm not as patient as I use to be anymore. I can throw a fit over the simplest stuff and that absolutely sucks. Am I the one changing or are the people around me I know are changing or is that EVERYONE is?
Oh my.
Everything is not the same anymore.
How bad can things get?
I'll honestly say that I Miss My Friends. I do. I miss the ones that I'm usually not close to now. I miss all the late-night calls and how we'd catch things up with one another. I would usually put away my sleep time sometimes if that he or she tells me that, that person would call me in the next few hours or so. Cos why? Because I miss them. But i now get how it all goes. Like how I said in my previous post, some people are just... take or go. Or rather, grab and go.
What is Grab & Go? They be friends with someone, make them happy, give them stupid false hope that they think some girl would fall for and let them go. They leave them hanging just like that. And that poor girl would be thinking whether or not things that were said were true. And make girls cry. Gah, stupid guys.
Okay, this paragraph mentioned above is totally not about friends but true happenings. It happened to me, really. I didn't know at all how to handle it so i cried my eyes out. Stupid me.
Although I know that it all above happened months ago, it is still happening in my mind. All the words, on replay. Everything, every single thing.
Yes. Think of me as... pathetic if you want to. Like I care.
I am just really pissed off that it happened. But even me going through all of that try my very best to keep us as FRIENDS. But generally speaking, some people are just heart breaking. They don't know how to treasure people.
Oh. Wait. Is it just me not being able to move on that I am writing all these or is it that some people are just heartless?
i am so bodoh. I feel so bodoh right now.
OHHHMYYYGODDD. What the heck is wrong with me? Why am i thinking of all these when that person on the other side does not care about a single shit anymore?
Know what. I have a lot to type out but i am just too lazy to.
Like i said, why am i thinking of all these when that person on the other side does not care about a single shit anymore?
I have pictures of today's outing and family feast today. Will upload them tomorrow. And oh, I've had a haircut. I like it very much.
i've said how much i missed you and you are still not doing anything about it.
don't you at least feel bad for neglecting the people in your life and by that i meant, your friends?
Yep. I know that you are really really busy with things. But when you have the free time, can you just please call me? I've left so many calls... so many missed calls but you BOTH never called back.
that just shows something.
I feel bad but at the same time, I don't.
I have just a thing to say, please... please okay. Just make time for your friends. Omg. Is it so hard to do something so simple? I'm sure you at least have 'some' free time. Don't tell me that you are ALWAYS busy.
Can't you just make yourself free for a day so we can hang out at the very least?
The last time the three of us met was, last year. LAST YEAR.
LAST YEAR.
That was so long ago. Looking through pictures really bring back memories and I tend to cry over them but the two of you don't understand anything.
How i totally feel neglected.
I know i have other friends.
But, sometimes, I need you guys. I need the two of you so bad.
Because sometimes I think, only the two of you'd understand.
what the hell happened to all the celebrity talks? All the gossipings and the 'big jawlines' topic?
What happened to all of it?
What also happened to, "I miss you. Wanna meet? When are you free to?"
And, those fun talks we used to have.
"Qazimah, wanna phone tonight?"
WHAT HAPPENED TO ALL THAT?
maybe they're all just gone.
Just. Like. That.
And and, OMG la. I am totally gonna miss yasmin!
Do text me when you're leaving kay babe!
I found out that If U Seek Amy meant...
I(f) U Se(C)e(K)Amy(Me)
How cool's that?
it is just the way i am.
