I feel that I'm now distancing myself from a lot of people and I don't know why.
Everything's not the same anymore.
Oh! I just wished I had a perfect friendship.
You know, like the ones on T.V? But nah. Television's a facade unlike how reality lives are.
I will honestly say that I'm sick, super super sick of everything that's happening.
I need someone to talk to. I need someone who knows me like, super well, to talk to.
I hate being emotional. I mean, who does, right? I don't know what's happening now, anymore.
It's my thinking, it's my thinking... it is. But, it's not. It's happening in front of my very eyes. Everything's happening in front of me. How can I ever say that it is all my mentality when it is not? D'ya know how sucky it is to be alone and knowing that no one cares?

I really missed my secondary one and two lives. They were easy. Easy to go through, easy stuff learned... Everything... easy. But as i get older, I know that I have to go through a whole lot more than what I am currently going through now in life, at almost fifteen. I don't think I'm ready to face changes, challenges and all of that. But everything now, just sort of put me on the spot. I feel helpless going through it alone. Yes, i have friends to turn to but, i cannot depend on them every single time when i have a problem, can i? Like, they have their lives too, they have their own problems... I don't wanna be a bother.

I feel like, I'm carrying the load of the world on my shoulders.
I don't get this feeling. I feel so alone now and terribly dumb. And just. Why else can I do?
Can i like, cry?
Should I let things be the way they are now or change them?

I'm really, really sorry for the very emotional things i've typed out but that is how i feel.
Yes, if you are tired of reading, get out kay, go away.
I don't mind if i don't have any readers because this is about me and my life.

OKAY, BIATCHES. I JUST CRIED.
&@&@^#!

I'M TIRED OF IT ALL.
I'M TIRED.
I'M TIRED.

I dont know why!

SHIT.

Faliq said Selena and Taylor Lautner don't look good tgt. HAH. 0:
And Akmal, i'm really, really sorry. I still feel bad. ):

Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart,
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart?
Gotta pick myself up where do I start?
'cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart,
Don't know who my real friends are anymore...
I put my faith in you,
What a stupid thing to do.
Can it be easier?
Can I just change my life?
'cause it just seems to go bad everytime?
Will I be mending?
another one ending once again.

This old song from the veronicas reflects alot, huh.