I didn't get to support neither watch FFDC perform as it wasn't open to all. Well, I honestly felt bad for not supporting the crew neither watch them the time when they performed for this particular competition. I felt bad and you know, so i thought, to actually cover up my guilt, I'd come and watch them also, support them today but since Rasyad said it wasn't open to all as it was a function, I went out with Zahrah instead. She was supposed to accompany me to watch the crew. But since it was cancelled, we went Tampines Mall and Tampines One instead to 'window shop'
Walked around for a little while and Zahrah wanted to get an LBD (Little Black Dress) for herself for... some function that i do not know of. Heh. Searched for some and made her try. It was cute to see her trying on LBD's cos i have never seen her wore any of those before.
She tried but she didn't have the money for it so then to Topshop to continue the search and we tried on little pink-fairytaled looking dresses that looks hot on the both of us and i was shocked when i saw
RAIHANA and
ZULAIKA after that.
Watched some bungee-jumping that was happening outside Topshop and i got scared so we walked off. Hah, I've too many fears already. Gah, stupid fears. I so have to overcome it all.
By the time we walked around, it was already Dinner time.
So had dinner with her.
I had an enjoyable day, really.
Took loads of pictures but as you know that i am lazy and i, therefore am too lazy to upload. My computer has some stupid shit virus that cannot be cleared. Urgh. How dumb. So, don't want to upload. Lazy and it is also because of the freakin' virus.
Today was quite a dissapointment. But that dissapointment cheered me up with bumping into Raihana and Zulaika and hanging with Zahrah.
:D
Thank You, Zahrah for you know, hanging out with me.
You're the sweetest.
You're always there for me.
i don't need the answer, i already know.10:13PM,
Sometimes, I just dislike being nice. I dislike doing the things i do. I sometimes even regret doing it - being nice, that is. But i know there are not regrets in life, just lessons... I tried understanding a/the situation, i gave chances but people just like blowing chances away just like that. I'm speaking in general. I care about the people around me and i do not like it when one does not care about their particular friend who cares so greatly for them. I put my time away for the people i love and care whenever i can but they don't seem to do the same to me. That just means that they simply do not care, do they?
Yes, i understand they do need their time, they do have their own friends too. They need their space... but why can't they just care for the friends that they are not close to once in a while - if not always? is it that hard to do so?
Just ask them how they are and that simple thing just show how you care for them.
I don't know how i really feel now... I think I'm pissed. I think i feel a little bit out of the norm.
The simplest short phone calls, the short texts, the short meet-ups, would do it.
For me.
I think some people don't get how i miss them as a friend.
And sometimes people, leave their 'old' friends for their new ones.
What happened to the friend they've known for years or maybe months, although a few month's not that long? Friends do feel neglected and need their friends sometimes, right? The friends whom they think who would care for them so much. But instead, the friends they need, leave them for something they love, something they care for and love wayyyy more than the friends who need them... Who need them to hear their problems out, ask them how they are, miss them very badly. But they have better things to do.
Why do things turn out like this?
What happened to all the happy little texts i receive from the friends i love a lot?
What happened to those little talks i would have with the people i love a lot?
Things - messed up.
tyouverhmusch.
raihana, thanks so much for you know...
hahs, i don't think i should care so much anymore.
yourawklaurenn. lol.
