I never knew finding someone who really understand who you are inside-out is a hard thing.
I have always thought something like that would be easy.
But I've now realized that it isn't as easy as I thought it'd be.
It annoys me greatly and I don't like it.
It's hard to find someone who would always, always be there for you.
People have changed. Times have changed.
Everything is real different now. No one can just simply turn back time to the way the want it, can they? Well unless there is a time machine.
I would love to go back to when I was seven.
Or maybe, four. Still very naive. Still in a child-like mind. Free from all problems. Free from everything. But, too bad I can't.
Now that I'm fourteen, almost fifteen... A balancing act in life is needed.
I have a lot of things to handle in hand.

I have to learn how to handle things the right way and try not to hurt others when I'm hurt.
I dislike it that I have the slightest feelings of jealousy within me whenever I see the two together and I'm clueless on why am i feeling like that and I tend to hurt them whenever I feel that way. But then I thought, "They hurt me, too. Can't I hurt them back?"
I was wrong. I shouldn't have done that because that will only make things worse.
I don't know... I, feel a little bit lost but also feel that I'm in the right tracks. I've got all my feelings in control already. I've been feeling okay these days.
Not so sad anymore but apart of me still feel the pain that I have been going through for quite a while now. Hate the feeling.

It's not easy to find someone whom you really trust.
It's not easy.
After all that Ive gone through, I've learnt my lessons.
I really have.



I will become a better person from now on.

Chatted with my sweet little friend, Ifah for a little while just now.
I can't believe it, we've been friends since we were seven.
We parted then but are still in contact. :D

Thank you so much for everything Ifah.
I'm always here for you, you know?
I'm grateful to have a friend like you.
You have always been there for me, asking me how i am whenever you're free and have the time to talk to me, you have been a great buddy.
Thanks!

Qazimah.



i had a dream last night and it was all about you, hot.
one cute dream indeed.


THANK YOU SELYNNA.