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I feel sick
I have a slight headache and my throat, it hurts.
It's hard for me to swallow things... I've sucked like, 3 lozenges today and it was of no help, obviously. If those things cured my sore-throat, i will not be complaining right now, will i?
Tomorrow's Maths CT. Ahhhs, nevermind. I'll study as soon as my brother get home at
night with the calculator in his hands. I've misplaced my calculator and it's well-scribbled. It's all covered with
Good Charlotte, Avenged Sevenfold &
BFMV in ink and i don't like how it looks. So ugly. That was so sec one when i was super obsessed with metal/rock bands so ithose bands down... Well, i dislike metal/rock now, quite a lot. Those bands used to give me nightmares. Grrrr, goosebumps!
Oh hey,
iskandar, cheer up! :D Ohohoh! YAY, ZAHRAH IS BACK HOME WITH BITES AND HEAT RASH! :P
What a pity. Hope you get better soon, babe. (;
The confessions of A Shopaholic book that i am currently reading is due tomorrow and i'll have to return it, i don't think i can extend the date anymore as i've been doing that like, twice. Not fair. D;
I am in need of a new phone, seriously. This phone that i'm currently using,
s.u.c.k.s!
Ew. It really sucks! It will switch off by itself and everything. I need that Nokia E71 phone.
Please, please, please let me have it! That blackberry look-a-like phoneeeee. O.o
Went Tamp and then to Simei for Shopping with my aunt yesterday and i only bought a clutch bag. WTF? I wanted dresses and handbags but nevermind -.-
Lunch at Pizza Hut, Dinner at Eatzi.
Rushed over to Akmal's as it also was Yasmin's birthday yesterday and she's what... three? I think.
So cute!
I made an attempt in walking with high-heels and i suck at it. I can never stabilize myself and Aliah who is 12 walks elegantly with her 5inch. I am so jealous! D;
I almost tripped by the way. Embarrassing!
Am i that kind of a loser?
i seriously do not know what is wrong with me.
I get so green-eyed over the simplest things and i know
that i can't get what i want.. which is you...
and maybe that made me all green eyed.
yes, i love you.
I don't know why i do.
I need someone. right. now. so. badly.
why can't i get over something that is so long over?
i miss the laughing, the exchange of feelings and you.
everything is all so different now...
what should i do?
why is it so hard for me to?
we are so drifting apart and i miss you.
what happened to all the talks that made me be me?
what happened to you, the person with the listening ear, the one
i'll always turn to at times of need?
will i be alright without you in my mind?
should i be okay or should i not?
i tried so hard to and i still do, a lot.
Will i be happy if whatever i wish for, come true?
i still cry almost every night because the thought of you will leave me teary eyed.
if not cry, the feeling will strongly live and it leaves me the feeling of hurt and anger
and the feeling of misses.
what else?
I tried and persevere but nothing is happening.
you used to be my motivation.
but i tried not thinking of you once and everything turns messy.
so topsy-turvy.
Everything that i do without you in mind will turn bad, will get messy.
Can't i defend myself?
Do i need you in my mind all the time?
What what what is wrong with me?
why is it still you?
Are you the best that i think that i can get?
Are you so great?
that when i'm hurt, i still pretend that it's okay and that it is not your fault at all when it all is?
why that sudden change of mind?
It made me cry so bad.
Why, you?i've always wanted to give up but i can't.but, why still you?HECKA.
enough is enough.
