I'm writing this post and crying. It's just so hard for me to do it. I'm scared. Munn, you know why I am like this right now and I am sorry. D:
I think, I've been through a lot but.. this is the only thing that i can't keep to myself.
I should forget it all, right?


I kept thinking of everything just now and i just needed someone so badly to talk to. But, then, my friends were not okay. Nobody whom i thought was a good listener was okay and i was intimidated. I don't know what else to do but cry now.

Even if i do tell you you really won't know. Neither will you understand... Why break those promises? Why do you say things you know you won't mean? Would you rather see me cry than me being happy? I'm confused.
What should i do?
I don't know... I'm just pissed.
Why did you even make that choice and said that you promised you won't?
I did believe you when you said all that.
But when i told you every single thing i have been keeping in me all along, everything changed.

It all changed.

But everything all hit me and it came back.

I thought it was worth it... But it.... i guess, wasn't.
Was it ever right for me to let it go? I don't want to get over it but i guess, i have to.
I want to rewind everything and make it all happen again.
But i know it won't.

What should i do now?
I want to get over it but i can never get over it.
You're just the. one.

Do i have to paint a picture to make you see how i feel?

I'm suddenly dizzy.