Jealousy has taken over their minds
And the words they try to break me down with,
They only make us stronger.

"But i never told you everything

I hate every single thing that have been happening. And it's never going to stop if we're never going to sit and talk, slowly.

Never try to bad mouth someone when that he or she's under "Best Friend" Status. That's the promise, but why is it not kept as a promise?
Remember...
"We will never break this friendship no matter what?"
That was so sec one. When we first got close and became the best of friends. But, what happened now? My friends. My best friends.
I want and need them back so badly.
It's on and off. Like, when one's okay, the other one is not. And it's so stupid. I feel so dumb to be the one either fighting or the middle person who have to listen to those 'debates' and stuff.

I'm trying to get over this particular person and I am trying my hardest to, but i can't.
So, i tried keeping myself busy, my mind occupied with my best friends. The best friends, the ones in school, the one who used to be there for me at my time of need. There when i need them. Always try to calm me down and say sorry like a playback machine when they've done something wrong.
But too bad. These all isn't happening anymore.

I do know that people change. But i don't know that it's until this extent.
I've been hurt so many times.
Love, Friendship. They hurt.
When i thought one can make my day, it had to be fully ruined by some other people and when you put your hopes up high for that someone and know that it's all not happening to way you want it to happen, you can't do anything anymore but cry.
That was what happened/is happening to me.

I need someone now.
I need someone to talk to.
I need you. But you will never be there for me anymore and i just, know it.
because things will never be the same again, will it?
NO.

Okay. I really am feeling suddenly, 'unappreciated'.

I want to cry.

Why isn't things happening to the way i want it to be?
Valentine's coming up and you all have plans.

The guys are off to Tamp to buy stuff for Valentines and I'm home.
No, I want to be home. I don't want to be out with them because I've no mood to.
Have a great Valentines, even though it's still a pretty long way to go. Well, not really actually.

Hell, who cares.

Hope you people will have a great V'day.


i've never had a real one before.

I need Zahrah, Murni, Zul, Yasmin. Wait. I think.


#&$*


what happened to all of us?

and, happy b'day raymond.
3rdFeb. (: