Some things are just better left unsaid.
Some things can't be changed no matter how hard to want it to.
People, change.
For better or for ... worse.
I think, i've changed but i don't know if these changes in me are good enough for myself.

I want to be responsible. I want to be good. I want to be the girl not everyone loves to hate or something. I want to be the girl who everyone know for the right reasons. Not the wrong one.

But i do know that I'm not the girl who get caught in school for having minis in school. The one punished for being late for school.
I am the girl caught for not attending CCA's so bad that i got kicked out and having a long fringe and never wants to clip it up (i do tuck it behind my ear), though. Not always.

i want to prove people wrong, from now on.
I want to stand out. I want them to know that i am, me.
I am Qazimah.
I want all my schoolwork done good and know that I'm trying to be different and show them that not all Normal Technical students can't do well and excel.
Qazimah is trying her absolute hardest to prove people wrong from now on.

:D

I really think you've changed, my dear best friend.
You really are different. You are like, another person with them and another, with us.
i want us to stick together and always be with each other through thick and thin but i have came to realize that no one really appreciate my help and none notice that I'm worrying about their problems, not mine and i care about them that my problems are now, taking a toll on me.
i have been hiding the truth for so long and i don't think i can keep it any longer.
i think i have to 'fess up.


Done.

Today;
- Stayed back after school to help the class with the Chinese new year decoration and stuff.
- Had a freaking maths test and i hope i do well on it, like really.
I am so tired. But it's okay. Tomorrow's Friday ... :D
- Played a game of soccer for PE and shit, i suck. I obviously did not do anything but stand in the hot sun. Had to do push ups and a guy stepped on my fingers by accident and i was like, "OMG! OUCHHHH!" And mr jit had to echo it back and made the whole class laugh. I mean, whaaaaat?
Ala, i don't care uh. :P

Yesterday;
Rahman, Amalia, Rusydi and I walked Rasyiqah home. From school to her bustop. Quite a long walk lah. And if you were there, you would ask me to zip my mouth because i was complaining like crazy because it was super hot and i was sweating to the max.
I am serious! URGH.


I missed an ep of the hills! Wth!
I watched an ep of Cheyenne on MTV, watch it people. Cheyenne Kimball!

I realised that Taylor Swift's You're Not Sorry lyrics's really nice and meaningful and it used to be how i feel.


what the heck do people change? It sucks to know that.
I hate that everyone's changing. Who will ever be the same again?
Do i have to watch everyone fade and see their true colours?
Why am i always hurt, like this?


When can i ever get that perfect someone?
When i think that someone's perfect and can accept me for who i am, that someone has to go.
When i think life's weird, it gets perfect.

What's life?
Some Hollywood Drama that includes bitches?

Yeah, probably. But whatever it is, i have to go through it.

Life gets bizzare at times.
But it's life and you have to overcome the things you're scared of.