Jt's 2.26AM now and i'm still not sleepy because i slept for a mere three hours this afternoon. -.- Thank god I'm not fat for sleeping too much. Okay, this is just shit. Hm, had an impromptu dinner with the other side of the family just now and, went to Vivo with Iqa, Hazmi. Pictures on facebook. Bye. I'm lazy. Will edit. Hahah. -.-
22DEC09'
22 December, 2009
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale.
"I'm gonna find someone, someday who might actually treat me well..."
- Taylor Swift's white horse
21DEC09'
21 December, 2009
When the walls start crumbling...
Breakfast - Lunch - Bedok South - Early Dinner @ Simpang Bedok - Downtown East. That was what i did today. Off to Downtown after early dinner. Bought two dresses for twenty. How worth it (: But nothing beats my favourite place in the whole wide world, thank you. I obviously am still into Cotton Onz. And i need new flats. Like, black, pink and zip-bra-preenz, maybe? Have to get em'. Oh, gonna get a tee for only ten, there too... I hope. Or if i don't, someone get it for me pleaasssee. ;D
And. I hate it that I'm loving forever 21 and Jimmy Choo shoes... Thanks to mum la, aiyo! Haha.
I am ovizziali (officially -.-, how lame can i get) obsessed with fashion and clothing. WTF. YAY.
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY, INSYIRA! :D
20DEC09'
19 December, 2009
Now them butterlies in my stomach won't stop.
Hazmi and I planned again for the outing to Vivo on the 23rd.
Q: Eh, i feel like eating burger. H: huh, buka... why? Q: burger la. H: ah? what buka? Q: i said burger la! H: Oh. I heard buka. HAHA. Q: HAHAH. Pekak betul ah, si dini. H: Tak dengar kan. HAHA.
Pekak you know, this guy. Wanted Iqa to join the conversation but she couldn't. Ugh. You could've, Iqa. But never mind since you're tired. We'll do so tomorrow (; I don't see why should we plan so much for only a day's outing -.-
Spent the day @ home.
Woke up at twelve in the afternoon.
Things i did at home today - : - Watched Bolt on Disney. - Jon & Kate Plus 8. - MTV Asia Awards 2008. - Some Malay Drama. - Slept. - Woke up from sleep. - Watched TV again.
What a cycle.
I totally should hit the library and borrow some books for reading already. I hate lazing around at home... Should find something productive to do. Shouldn't I?
I hate it when I'm alone at home and because I tend to have unnecessary thoughts circling around my head.
I'm just not helping. I'm in this... alone. I can't do anything about it.
Today is just one of my bad days, i think. I'm stressing because of nothing. Unnecessary thoughts. I don't know. I feel so inferior. Excluded.
Everybody needs inspiration, Everybody needs a song A beautiful melody... When the night's so long, Cause there is no guarantee, That this life is easy.
19DEC09'
18 December, 2009
Like there's no sunrise.
Spent the day today @ home. GAH.
Q : Ah, okay. I'll call you back later kay... H: Ya, okay okay. Q: Uh, okay then. H : Ah? Okay what...? Q: Okay... bye.
The conversation i had with my cousin just a few minutes ago. Planning about the outing that Iqa, himself and I were going to have on the 21st or 24th. Ha, LOL much. You were like, blur la. Funny. xD
I should've known this wasn't real and fought it off and fought to feel.
You've disappeared, the wound in my heart has healed. The cuts are no longer left open. So, it is true when people say that, "Time is all you need." I believe in that... now. It really was time that i needed.
And I'm waiting. Hoping. Wishing. that something better will come by and change my life. Something true and real.
Pretty impossible. Very impossible, in fact.
But with time, i've got my friends back. With time, I'm able to get over all the hurt that you've caused me. With time, I managed to work things out with everyone.
Time is everything and with all the hurt that you've caused me then, I'm glad to say that I'm over it, over you and everything's back to it's normal state.
I'm so confused, constantly wishing for what I've been missing in my life... I learn to be strong when the walls are crumbling all around my heart. This is the first time that I know who I am cause now my feet are on solid ground, before I didn't know up from down and it won't be long 'till I find were I'm going now... I must confess I was a mess, I tried not to show it, didn't want them to know it, cause everyone has their own cross to bear and mine is still waiting for everything to fall back into place.
But I learned to be strong when the rain is falling all around my heart. Don't look back, learn from the past... Living for now is what keeps me going, don't look back but hold the memories I can do this, I must do this...
This is my world, a much better view... I feel myself growing without even knowing what lies ahead. But who really knows? I'll just embrace it... With love, I can face it
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY DANIEL!
17DEC09'
17 December, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYAHIRAH!
i love you so much (:
I hope you enjoyed your Fifteenth birthday!
Off to Marina Barrage to celebrate Syahirah's Fifteenth Birthday by having a picnic. Met Nadhirah first and then Amalia and Rusydi.
Went to NTUC to get crackers and stuff.
Took the train there and met Sya and Ansari. Walked and walked till we reached the bustop and caught the bus to the Barrage.
The cake first then crackers and drink and pictures!
We took a whole lot of pictures, really.
Nadhirah and I thought of funny names for each one of us.
It was really cute. Both of us laughed our heads off, i swear.
It was fun. I had a very fun time and i enjoyed it so much.
Happy Birthday again, Syahirah!
16DEC09'
15 December, 2009
It's intuitive, you don't have to try...
Today spelled FUN. FUN. FUN.
Taxi-ed all the way to City Square Mall with Mum & Brother. Met Iqa, her mum and brothers there and had lunch... Fried Rice Kimchi <3 really, really good. Window shopped then and I found myself in love with Fedora Hats! :D They're so pretty. I like.
After walking a few rounds and me, having to beg my mum for the cotton on cropped tee, all of us were off to Parkway Parade and i obviously rushed to my favourite store in the whole wide world and grabbed what i wanted. I'm happy now already, wheeeeee.
Okay, goodnight. Dinner with Family tomorrow. Syahirah's Birthday on the seventeenth.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIAH (:
Bestfriend: ehh , mlm aku call kau, rindu suara rock luu ah babe, hahah.
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Qazimah, fifteen.
& temperamental. 15 july.
The Hills, Knock First, The City, Jon & Kate Plus 8, Keeping Up With The Kardashians, Icarly, Sonny With A Chance, WOWP.
Demi Lovato, Selena Gomez, Taylor Lautner.